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Rob "The Dutchman" Kaman (Born June 5, 1960 in Amsterdam) is a Dutch retired 9 time kickboxing and Muay Thai world champion considered by many as the greatest kickboxer of all time. Often called "Mr. Low Kick" because of his feared low kicks which he used to set up his devastating offensive attacks.
In his early days he played football for AFC Ajax Amsterdam Youth Team. Rob was a good player, but never liked team sports and at the age of 16 he started training in the martial arts, first Pentjak Silat and in 1978 he started training Muay Thai at Mejiro Gym under Jan Plas.
In 1980 Rob became an A-class fighter in the Netherlands. He won most of his fights by K.O. The turning point for him was his fight with Blinky Rodriquez, the cousin of Benny Urquidez. Rob knocked him out in the 2nd round with a low kick to the leg. That was his international breakthrough. From then on, Rob started fighting in Thailand.
His first fight in Thailand was against Dennoi, a local champion. Rob won by K.O. and was asked to fight Lakchart, a Thai champion, in Bangkok. He lost that fight but learned a lot from the loss.
As the moon rose and the hour grew late,
The day-help on the coconut estate
Raked up the dried leaves that fell dead from the trees
Which they burned in a pile by the lake.
The beetle king summoned his men
And from the top of the rhododendron stem
"Calling all volunteers who can carry back here,
The great mystery's been lit once again."
One beetle emerged from the crowd
In a fashionable abdomen shroud.
Said, "I'm a professor, see, that's no mystery to me,
I'll be back soon successful and proud."
But when the beetle professor returned,
He crawled on all six as his wings had been burned
And described to the finest detail all he'd learned
There was neither a light, nor a heat in his words
The deeply dissatisfied king
Climbed the same stem to announce the same thing
But in his second appeal sought to sweeten the deal
With a silver padparadscha ring.
The lieutenant stepped out from the line
As he lassoed his thorax with twine
Thinking, "i'm stronger and braver and I'll earn the
king's favor.
One day all he has will be mine."
But for all the lieutenant's conceit,
He too returned singed and admitting defeat.
"I had no choice, please believe, but retreat
It was bright as the sun, but with ten times the heat
And it cracked like the thunder and bloodshot my eyes
Though smothered with sticks, it advanced undeterred
Carelessly cast an ash cloud to the sky, my lord,
Like a flock of dark vanishing birds."
The beetle king slammed down his fist
"your flowery descriptions no better than his!
We sent for the great light and you bring us this!
We didn't ask what it seems like, we asked what it is!"
His majesty's hour at last is drawn nigh
The elegant queen took her leave from his side
Without understanding, but without asking why
Gathered their kids to come bid their goodbyes
And the father explained, "you've been somewhat
deceived,
We've all called me your dad, but your true dad's not
I laid next to your mom and your forms were conceived
Your Father's the light within all that you see.
He fills up the ponds as he empties the clouds
Holds without hands, and he speaks without sounds.
He provides us with the cow's waste and coconuts to eat
Giving one that nice salt taste, and the other is
sweet.
Sends the black carriage the day death shows its face
Thinning our numbers with kindness and grace
And just as a flower and its fragrance are one,
So must each of you and your Father become.
Now distribute my scepter, my crown, and my throne
And all we've known as wealth to the poor and alone
Without further hesitation, without looking back home,
The king flew headlong into the blazing unknown.
And as the smoke king curled higher and higher
The troops flying loops round the telephone wires
They said, "our beloved's not dead, but his highness
instead,
Has been utterly changed into fire."
Through mostly vacant streets,
A baker form the out-skirts of his town,
Earned his living pedaling sweets from a ragged cart he
dragged around.
The clever fox crept close behind,
Kept an ever watchful eye,
For a chance to steal a ginger spice cake,
Or a boysenberry pie.
Looking down was the hungry crow:
'When the time is right, I'll strike,
And condescend to the earth below
And take whichever treat I'd like.'
The moment the baker turned around
To shoo the fox off from his cart,
The crow swooped down,
And snatched a short bread cookie and a German
chocolate tart.
Using most unfriendly words,
That the village children had not yet heard,
The baker shouted threats by canzonet to curse the
crafty bird.
You rotten wooden mixing spoon,
Why you midnight winged raccoon,
You better bring those pastries back you no good burnt-
black macaroon.
The fox approached the tree
Where the bird was perched, delighted in his nest.
'Brother Crow, don't you remember me?
It's your old friend Fox with a humble request.
If you could share just a modest piece,
Seeing as I distracted that awful man.'
This failed to persuade the crow,
And even so,
The fox rethought his plan.
'Then if your lovely song would grace my ears,
Or to even to hear you speak,
Would ease my pains and fears!'
The crow looked down, with a candy in his beak.
'Your poems of wisdoms, if I could crow'
What a paradise they bring!'
This flattery pleased the proud bird so,
He opened his mouth and began to sing:
'Your subtle acclimation's true,
Best to give praise where praise is due.
Every rook and jay in the Corvidae's been raving about
me too.
They admire me, one and all,
'Must be the passion in my ca,
My slender bill known throughout the escadrille,
My fierce commanding claw!'
I've got a walnut brownie brain,
And molasses in my veins,
Crushed the graham cracker crust,
My powdered sugared funnel cake cocaine.
Let the crescent cookie rise,
These carum colored almond eyes,
Would rest to see my cashewed princess,
In the swirling marble sky.
Would rest upon my knee,
Where all of the visions cease to be,
A root-beer float,
In our banana boat,
Across the tapioca sea,
When letting all attachments go,
Is the only prayer we know,
May it be so,
May it be so,
May it be so,
we took the twine we used to use
to tie up tight our tattered shoes
twisted twigs and crooked cross
a necklace for the deeply lost
Builder with the broken bricks
Mother to the baby chicks
You made this world to look so nice
I wonder what the next one's like?
yellow spider,
yellow leaf
It's the smell of hot summertime trash,
it's the city noise of a busy street
it's a train derailed and two car head on freeway crash
each time we meet
"and if it comes as some sort of surprise," she said
"that I seem so composed,
I've kept this moment closer to my eyes," she said,
"than the glasses resting on the edge of my nose."
shadow am I!
a question of a person, no said reply
wolf am I!
and shadow cast on the sheep as I pass by
shadow am I, or like a
wearing-black-socks-and-white-woolen-locks
wolf am I, and shadow.
she was grace and green as a stem,
but I walk heavy on delicate ground
(((...as I go showing off again,self impressed by how well I can put myself down!!
and then go again, to the next further removed level
of that same exact feigned humility!!!)))
[this for me goes on and on to the point of nausea]
shadow am I!
like suspicion that's never confirmed
but it's never denied
Wolf am I!
(((no, "shadow" I think is better,
as I'm not so much something as the absence of something)))
So SHADOW AM I!
the material world seems to me like a newspaper headline-
it explicitly demands your attention
and it may even contain some truth
and what's really going on here?
one day the water's gonna wash it away
Save my skin, I need a medic
Hold me down, I'm only sewn down.
Save my teeth, show me you meant it
Catch my death, I'm only sewn together.
My eyelids are heavy, and the night's wearing on
Your story's familiar, and your innocence is gone
We'd burn like the morning then break like your heart
Fall in love without warning just to fall back apart
All fevered and blistered, with nothing at stake
I feel the warmth of her whisper, and the cold of my mistakes
Her soul in the balance, my heart in her hands
I'll lie down for the last time
and fall far, Ill fall well away from her
And I insist that I'll be dearly missed
(please, say never)
I'll pour down like water
and In between the sky and doubt
we talked about 'forever'
all our other useless words.
Until I say "in his silent sound was the
peace I found" but she hides behind
her eyelids. and I feel the breath from
her nose on my neck as it blows by
the warmth passes me (like her love did)
"But a tree once cut down
came up new from the ground"
and she smiles a lie, "that may very well be,"
she replies "and so it goes,
it's the devil, I suppose but it doesnt matter much to me."
Put music to our troubles
and we'll dance them away.
From my left eye flow tears of joy
and sorrow from my right.
"You might seem too strong to surrender,
boy, but you're far too frail to fight."
That old dull pain beats in my brain
and falls down my back into every limb-
And its more of the same
as the warmth that I seem to lack,
Why burn poor and lonely under a bowl.
Under a lampshade or on the shelf
Beside the bed where at night
You lay turning like a door on it's hinges?
(First on your left side, then on your right side, then your left side again)
Why burn poor and lonely?
Tell all the stones, we're gonna make a building.
We'll cut into shape & set into place or you'd rather be a window,
I'll gladly be the frame reflecting any kind of words.
We'll let in all the blame
(And ruin our reputation all the same)
Never mind out plan making,
We'll start living......anyway,
Aren't you unbearably sad?
Then why burn so poor and lonely?
We'll be like torches
we'll be like torches
We'll be torches together! torches together
well be like torches
we'll be like torches
With whatever respect, our tattered Dignity demands
Torches together, hand in hand
Why pluck one string - What good is just one note?
Oh, one string sounds fine i guess....We were once 'One Note',
We were lonely wheat quietly ground into grain
(What light and momentary pain!)
So why this safe distance, this curious look?
Why tear out single pages when you can throw away the book?
Why pluck one string when you can strum the guitar?
Strum the guitar!
strum the guitar!
strum the guitar!
With no beginning, with no end
Take down a guitar and strum the guitar
strum the the guitar if you're afraid,
And I'm afraid and everyone's afraid
And everyone knows it but we don't have to be afraid anymore
You played the flute but no one was dancing
You sang a sad song but none of us(x4)
On a cold December, just before dawn
As the sun said "hello" to the sky
The mantis prayed while the lamellicorn tumbled
And rolled in a threadbare tie
The Holland lops in the Callicoon glades indignantly
thumped their feet
And hopped away when they cut their noses on the sharp-
tipped blades
(Since the grass doesn't mind in the least)
The heat pad waiting in the chicken-wire hutch where
the does from the Netherlands stay
But that dry alfalfa don't taste like much and we're
tired of the timothy hay
(hey)
I touched her back, she was lying face down
The dew turned to frost in her eyes
Me and sister Margaret in the pentagon lawn
With our wrists in a plastic tie
While the rats by the tracks on these winter days
Seeking shelter from the cold
Make a nest in the traps of our various ways
That they can save their immortal souls
Oh no, timothy hay
Oh no, timothy hay
Oh no, timothy hay
Oh no, timothy hay
Oh no, timothy hay
Oh no, timothy hay
Please no more timothy hay
No more timothy hay
Oh no, no more timothy hay
Oh no, no more timothy hay
Oh no, no more timothy hay
No more timothy hay
Cold December, just after dusk
As the sun bid its cordial goodbyes
We get splits of pieces like an apple seed husk
To reveal the tree that's been hidden inside
We're a sapling caught in a tattered sirah
At the seams from the shepherd's purse-belt
Broke the news to mom: we found a better Mom
We call "G-d" (which she took quite well)
What a beautiful G-d, what a beautiful G-d, what a
beautiful G-d there must be!
What a beautiful G-d, what a beautiful G-d, what a
beautiful G-d there must be!
What a beautiful G-d, what a beautiful G-d, what a
beautiful G-d there must be!
What a beautiful G-d, what a beautiful G-d, what a
I was looking at the leaves
Climbing to the tops of the trees
But you were nowhere to be found,
Just beneath all the green
You were buried like a little seed
(Among the roots and underground,)
I was licking at the leaves
But I was in short sleeves and you.
You were like some sickness that I caught.
My sweetheart moved away,
Swept off like garbage in the alleyway
(I need more grace than I thought.)
Brother, I'm far
brother im far way
brother away from everything good!(x2)
She's like a hot cloth on a fevered head
And like a needle she leads me
Well, I follow like thread
Tie me up!
Untie me!
All this wishing I was dead is getting old... is getting old
It goes on but it's old.
I was swimming through the waves
For what must have been days
But could find no relief,
When I started sinking down
I thought for certain I would drown
Until I saw you in the ocean underneath
All the bright colored fish
Tell of a treasure in a dull shell,
"Such subtlety, so easily missed!"
You, my hidden pearl of pure and perfect love
And I'm the living example of 100 percent the opposite of this,
If I ask the same questions (now o know i ask the same question)(x2)
Well maybe I repeat myself from time to time,
But it's because everyone who answers me is a liar.
She's like a hot cloth on a fevered head
And like a needle she leads me
Well, I follow like thread
But you untied me - didn't you untie me, Lord?
And now I haven't even thought about
Daniel broke the king's decree,
Peter stepped from the ship to the sea
there was hope for Job like a cut down tree,
I hope that there's such hope for me
dust be on my mind's conceptions
and anything I thought I knew
each word of my lips' description,
and on all that I compare to You
[the preference of the sun was
to the south side of the farm
I planted to the north in a terra-cotta pot
blind as I'd become, I used to wonder where you are-
these days I can't find where you're not!]
mine's been a yard carefully surgace level tended
foxes burrowed underground
my gardening so highly self-recommended,
what could I have done but let you down?
the sun and the moon,
I want to see both worlds as One!
mine's been a vivid story, dimly remembered
and by the hundredth time it's told, halfway true
of bad behavior well engendered
what good is each good thing we think we do?
[find a friend and stay close and with a melting heart
tell them whatever you're most ashamed of-
our parents have made so many mistakes,
but may we forgive them and forgive ourselves]
God is love and love is real,
but the dead are dancing with the dead
and though all that's charming disappears
all things lovely only hurt my head
as I gather stones from fields like pearls of water on my fingers' ends
and wrap them up in boxes,
safe from windows, from things that break,
as the night-time shined like day it saw my sorry face,
hair a mess but it liked me best that way
(Besides, how else could I confess?
When I looked down like if to pray,
well I was looking down her dress...)
Good God, please!
Catch for us the foxes in the vineyard - The little foxes.
Turn your ear, musician, to silence because they only come out when it's quiet,
their tails brushing over your eyelids
Wake up, sleeper, and rise from the dead!
Or the fur that they shed will cover your bed in a delicate orange-ish cinnamon red,
ah, I don't need this!
I have my loves, I have my doubts.
first came a strong wind,
ripping off rooftops like bottlecaps
and bending lampposts down to the ground
then came a thunder shattering my windows
but you were not that strong wind or that might sound
that left the barn in shambles, the rabbit hutch in ruins
the split-rail fence splintered and the curtains torn,
all the cows out from the pastures trampling on the pumpkins
and the horses from their stables ambling in the corn
Isa ruhu-lah 'alaihis-salat was-salam
I've flown unnoticed just behind you like an insect
and I've watched you like a falcon from a distance as you passed
then swooped down to be nearer to the traces of your footsteps
to pick the fallen grain from the dirt beneath the crooked grass
and I'm gonna take that grain and I'm gonna crush it all together
into the flour of a bread as small and simple and sincere
as when the dryness and the rain finally drink from one another
the gentle cup of mutual surrender tears
A fish swims through the sea,
while the sea is in a certain sense
contained within the fish!
Ah, what am I to think
of what the writing of a thousand lifetimes
could not explain
if all the forest trees were pens
and all the oceans ink?
nastagh-firuka ya Hokan
ya Dhal-Jalah wal-Ikram
Isa ruhu-lah 'alaihis-salat was-salam
ya Halim, ya Qahhar
ya Muntaqim, ya Ghaffar!
The cure for pain is in the pain,
so it's there that you'll find me.
Until again I forget,
and again he reminds me,
"Hear my voice in your head,
and think of me kindly."
Let me be, let me be..
Lowered down like a casket
and buried just below her chest.
"Whatever I was searching for,
it was never you," she says.
The record ended long ago,
we go on dancing nonetheless.
I opened like a locket,
"If you're ever cold," I wrote,
"there's warmth inside me.
I'm the pocket of an old winter coat."
But where she used to say "I need you."
Now...."I don't."
You'd only make the softest sound,
like sugar pouring into tea.
Darling let your Self pour down
and dissolve into the Love
who revealed himself there quietly to me...
the angel of death came to david's room
the angel of death came to david's room
the angel of death came to david's room
he said, "friend, it's time to go"'
angel, no, i think you've come too soon
angel, no, i think you've come too soon
angel, no, i think you've come too soon
it's not my time to go
sorry friend, now put your hand in mine
i'm sorry friend, now put your hand in mine
but good angel, don't i get a warning sign
before it's my time to go?
come now david, where's your grandma gone?
come now david, where's your grandpa gone?
come now david, where's your grandma gone?
their time came to go
but i slew goliath with the sling and stone
i slew goliath with the sling and stone
i slew goliath with the sling and stone
it's not my time to go
he'll be waiting for you when we get back home
he'll be waiting for you when we get back home
he'll be waiting for you when we get back home
it's time, it's time to go
come now david, where's your momma gone?
come now david, where've your uncles gone?
come now david, where've your aunts all gone?
their time came to go
can i tell solomon the things i've learned?
can i tell solomon the things i've learned?
i'm sorry, friend, that's none of my concern
it's time, it's time to go
come now david where's uriah gone?
stranded on the battlefield,
the troops withdrawn
come now david, where's uriah gone?
his time came to go
come now david, where's bathsheba gone?
and where've your binoculars and rooftop gone?
the unexpected baby from the bath night gone?
their time came to go
in a sweater poorly knit and an unsuspecting smile
little moses drifts downstream in the Nile
a fumbling reply, an awkward rigid laugh
I'm carried helpless by my floating basket raft
your flavor in my mind swings back and forth between
sweet rhan any wine and bitter as mustard greens
light and dark as honeydew and pumpernickel bread
the trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead!
as you plow some other field try and forget my name
see what harvest yields, and, supposing I'd do the same
I planted rows of peas but by the first week of July
they should have come up to my knees
but they were maybe ankle high
take the fingers from your flute to weave your colored yarns
and boil down your fruit to preserves in mason jars
but now the books are overdueand the goats are underfed
the trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead!
you're a door-without-a-key, a field-without-a-fence
you made a holy fool of me and I've thanked you ever since.
if she comes circling back we'll end where we'd begun
like two pennies on the train track the train crushed into one
or if I'm a crown without a king, if I'm a broken open seed
if I come without a thing, then I come with all I need
no boat out in the blue, no place to rest your head,
the trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead!
exist
only
I'll ring your doorbell
Until you let me in
And I can no longer tell
Where 'you' end and 'I' begin
Grape on the vine
We've been alone a long time
Grape on the vine
Why not be crushed to make wine?
Pay no attention to me
Dancing with my girl
We have every intention to be
Failures in this world
Grape on the vine
We've been alone a long time
Grape on the vine
Why not be crushed to make wine?
Six of my closest friends
Will dig up the ground
All my accomplishments
Gently lowered down
Grape on the vine
We've been alone a long time
Grape on the vine
Why not be crushed to make wine?
(All is the same to the souls of those so much resigned)
The son of the widow
You raised from the dead
Where did his soul go
Don't waste your lips on words I've heard before
Kiss my tired head.
And each letter written wastes your hand, young man
Come and lead me to your bed
You gave me hope that I'd not lost her
And then thought it rather strange to see me smile-
as I don't do too much smiling these days.
She put on happiness like a loose dress
Over pain I'll never know
"So the peace you had," she said,
"I must confess, I'm glad to see it go."
We're two white roses lying frozen just outside his door
I've made you so happy and so sad,
But which should I be more sorry for?
Come kiss my face goodbye,
that space below my eye and above my cheek
Cause I'm faint and fading fast, I see a darkness
And I shall be released.
I'll pass like a fever from this body,
And softly slip into his hands
I tried to love you and I failed,
But I have another plan.
How long, My Lord, how long to sing this song?
And my Lord, how muchmore of this pretending to be strong?
When she stands before your throne
Dressed in beauty not her own
All soft and small, you'll hear her call
He made the world a grassy road before our bare, wandering feet,
and crushed the stones into the softest sand between our toes,
but we're wondering where to sleep,
clever words on pages turn to fragments, circles, points and lines,
and cover them like carpets, with graceful,
meaningless ornamental designs
Come quick, you light that knows no evening
Come, alone to the alone!
I have a thousand half-loves well worth leaving for to take your madness home,
and you dance inside my chest where no on sees you,
but sometimes I see you
rejoice, the cleansing of my lips
Rejoice, salvation of my soul!
But I still have a thousand half-loves
(Oh my God! I want to shoot myself just thinking about it)
And you think I don't mean what I say?
Well I mean every word I say.
I threw a small stone down at the reflection of my image in the water,
and it altogether disapperared.
I burst, as it shattered through me like a bullet through a bottle,
Not one motion of her gesture could I forget
The prettiest bag lady I ever met
Pushing her cart in the rain
Then gathering plastic and glass
She watched the day pass
Not hour by hour
But pain by pain
If I was a basket filled with holes
Then she was the sand I tried to hold
And ran out behind me
As I swung with some invisible hands
I stopped believing, you start to move
She was like wine turned to water then turned back to wine
I stopped my leaving and the better man bloomed
And you can pour us out and we won't mind
I was dead, then alive
She was like wine turned to water and turned back to wine
You can pour us out, we won't mind
A scratch around the mouth of the glass
My life is no longer mine
If you're still looking for a blanket
Sweetie, I'm sorry, I'm no sort of fabric
But if you need a tailor
Then take your torn shirt, and stumble up my stairs
And mumble your pitiful prayers
And in your tangled night's sleep, our midnight needles go to work
Until all comfort and fear flows in one river
Down on the shelf by the mirror where you see yourself whole
And it makes you shiver
I stopped believing, you start to move
She was like wine turned to water then turned back to wine
I stopped my leaving and the better man bloomed
And you can pour us out and we won't mind
I was dead, then alive
She was like wine turned to water and turned back to wine
You can pour us out, we won't mind
A scratch around the mouth of the glass
My life is no longer mine
Our lives are not our own
Even the wind lays still
All I felt was fire and cold
And movement, movement
If they ask you for a sign of the Father
a note we wrote the other day
to any mice who pass this way
on crumed and sugared countertop:
"we must insist
your traffic STOP."
in their defense, they don't refuse
but nonetheless we've come to use
snapping traps and poison beans
(far less diplomatic means)
orange spider,
orange leaf
Without a queen the locust swarm
Turned the ground to black,
Descending like a shadowy tower opon a fish's back.
And scattered the sticks who crawled
Like snakes in the sand,
As the red clay took the form of a lizard,
Who rushed like a moth to the flame of my open hand
(My little world...in my sad little world...)
Then a speckled bird humbly inspired
Ran across the road when it could have flown,
And it made me smile.
And at the water's edge, Babylon;
As we lay and slept,
The river wept for you, Zion!
The stones cry out,
Bells shake the sky!
All of creation groans...
SHHHH!
Listen to it!
Messes of men in farmer poverty;
Not much for monks, but we pretend to be;
Share a silent meal and a pot of chamomile.
Gypsies like us should be stamped in solidarity.
And I held you in my fond but distant memory,
While waiting for the Mother Hen to gather me,
Who regretfully wrote:
"You have a decent ear for notes,
But you can't yet appreciate harmony."
O porcupine, low in the tree; your eyes to mine:
'You'd be well inclined not to mess with me.'
And at the garden's edge beneath a speechless sky,
As his friends slept,
Jesus wept - and it's no wonder why.
You wanna be set free?
You wanna set me free?!
Well that can only come from
A union with the One Who Never Dies.
[In my little world, in my sad little world, I patched a plaster wall
In my little world, I was waiting, just dying
to take offense at something.
In my little world, in my little world, in my sad little world
This is all there is in my little world.
In darkness a light shines
On me.
In darkness a light shines
On you.
Oh what'd I say?!
I never gathered figs from a thorny branch,
(Oh what'd I say?!)
I never picked a grape off a bramble bush!
(Oh what'd I say?!)
For the past five; almost six years now,
(Our Lord is come!)
You haven't once looked at me with kindness in your eyes;
(Oh what'd I say?!)
And you say Judas is a brother of mine?
(Oh what'd I say?!)
Oh, but sister in our darkness a light shines!
(Oh what'd I say?!)
And all I ever want to say for the rest of my life,
(Oh What'd I say!)
Is how the light is GOD!
(Our Lord is come!)
And through I've been mistaken on this or that point,
I have my pictures of you, you don't look back at me
A smile I'd almost forgotten, bruises I don't see
Never forgive you for a sky turned from gray to black
Come out and kiss me, darling
I promise I'll kiss you back.
A new head on my shoulder,
A needle in my ear
Every kind word brings new pain
Instead of my eyes,
Her reflection in the mirror.
I have a sickness, but I'm not the only one
Even in health ...
In each other's arms, they're wasting away
Sickened just as I am and crippled with disease
A song comes from above
I look up -- there's a tree and a small brown bird
Even the sparrows have built a nest
But we, poor fools, have built nothing
What a shame not to know that you're dying
Tell us we're dying, tell us again.
I have a sickness
The sparrows built a nest
My crippled, twisted body is swallowed by the earth
Tracks in the tall toadflax where he crawled,
Past Dodge Summit toward Athabasca falls,
Practicing his Avocets and Gnatcatcher calls
Walrus trudged along
While low in a lodgepole branch nearby
Barnyard Owl watched with an amorous eye
[OWL:]
“What unprecedented gift does this afternoon provide?”
“I’ve flown across the sea where the soldierfish swam,
I’ve slept inside the shoe of the world’s tallest man,
I saw Charlotte Corday with the knife in her hand;
It was nothing new
I’ve perched on Steele, Dakota’s sandhill crane
I flew among the Paiutes before the Mormon rain,
I was in Virginia City for the stringing up of Clubfoot
Lane
But I’ve never seen anything like you.”
All untied, by and by!
But I’d pour the matrimony wine
All untied, by and by!
so if you’re ever so inclined…”
[WALRUS:]
“What from the air now calls to water on the land?
What from my seclusion does this charlatan demand?
What to do now with my best-laid eremetic plans?
I’ve been to the Arfaks where the Sicklebills fly,
seen Tangier’s acrobatics nine stories high
I was there at Appomattox back in ’65 when the General
arrived
But I’ve never been in this room before!
[aside] All untied, by and by!
that same old dream’s trapped in my mind
I’m bound in ropes and on the firing line
well, I wake up disappointed every time
[to OWL]: If the weather ever withers up your vine
Jacob knows a ladder you can climb
If that old thorn is still buried in your side,
Jacob knows a ladder you can climb…”
[OWL:]
“Well, if your pacific rivers all run dry
their clouds will fill my loud, corrupted sky
And if the pleasures of your heavens (should) ever end
You were a song I couldn't sing
caught like a bear by the bees with its hand in the hive
who complains of the pain of the sting
when I'm lucky I got out alive!
a life at best left half behind,
the taste of the honey still sweet on my tongue
and I'd run (Lord knows I've tried)
but there's no place on Earth I can hide
from the wrong I've done
then I saw a mountain and I saw a city
steadily sinking but suspiciously calm
it wasn't an end, it wasn't a beginning
but a ceaseless stumbling on
there, strapped like a watch on my wrist
that's finished with gold but can't tell the time
was all or what little pleasure exists
seductively sold and uselessly mine
our horse was fast and first from the gate
with the lead of a length at the sound of the gun
and the last of our cash laid down to fate (at 17 to 1)
but by the final stretch in the rear of the pack
that nag limping bad in the back
we reluctantly gave all the money we'd saved
1/5 to the commonwealth and the rest ot the track
then I saw a forest grow in the city
& a driftwood wall of birdhouse gourds
and I'm still waiting to meet a girl like my Mom
who's closer to my age
the true light of my eyes is a Pearl
equally emptied to equally shine
and all or what little joy in the world
seemed suddenly simple and endlessly mine
I was once the wine and you were the wineglass,
I was once alive when you held me,
but G-d became the glass,
all things left are emptiness
but oh, you're just a little girl
if you look out and see a trace
of a dark red that was once my face
in the clarity of such grace,
You were a song that i couldn't sing,
you were a story I couldn't tell.
I've only ever loved myself,
but i loved myself so well.
And how defeated I return!
(You're nice and blue, you're nice and blue)
I missed what i was supposed to learn,
as all I learned about was missing you.
A life left half behind, though no longer blind I can't yet see. I'm not the boy that I once was, but I"m not the man I'll be!
I've been waiting now for six years on
(and I've only just begun)
For the day you'll hold her in her arms' oh, risen Lord, my precious on.
I was once a wine (X3) and you the wineglass.
I was once alive (X3) when you held me.
God became the glass,
all things left were emptiness, Oh my little girl, (X2)
My exit, unobserved, my homesickness, absurd
I said "water," expecting the word
Would satisfy my thirst!
Talking all about the second and third
When I haven't understood the first.
Jonah, where's that boat going -
Your ship set with eager sails?
There's a swirling storm soon blowing
And no use, fishermen, in rowing from a consecrated whale!
And just like the clouds they bring a darkness and a hard rain's gonna fall
I felt the crowds bring a loneliness and a hard rain's gonna fall.
She always weighed me down
But, afraid I might need her, I dragged her around
(It's best to keep close sackcloth and ash in a whitewashed town)
She wore that phony smile on her face,
I guess like a bandage on a wounded place
While I kept the keys to every old lock just in case.
Rehearsed indifference tossed aside,
Our narrow arms spread wide,
"What unseen pen etched eternal things on the hearts of humankind -
But never let them in our minds?"
The clouds they brught a darkness
And a hard rain's gonna fall
And all my laughter ends in emptiness
And a hard rain's gonna fall.
My every medicine causes more illness
And a hard rain's gonna fall
And until I let you go I didn't know, you were never mine at all
But now I spend my days in ever-increasingly complicated ways
Convincing myself of the rightness of each word I say
My exit, unfair if unobserved! My exit, unfair if unobserved!
Call me outside I'll come running down.
When I satisfied each need invented by my eye
I was a nest by a fox's hole or dirt underneath your boots soles
when I satisfied each need invented by my eye
it was nothing like I'd imagined.
Like cocaine, their green eyes fixed on the television to pass the time
until their two miles of elegant blinds halfway raised for the watching as you walked by
"Look, come to the window
She carries a candle at mid-day while the sun's still so high!"
But you knew better than to pay mind to what to people and the devil say call me outside,
I'll come running down into the vacant, intoxicating night,
call me outside to their haunted streets, their red electric lights,
I'm on the sad side of a nowhere town,
but sister I'm all you got so call me outside,
I do not exist, but faithfully insist,
Sailing in our separate ships and from each tiny caravelle.
Tiring of trying, with unecessary dying,
Like the horseshoe crab in its proper season sheds its shell.
Such distance from our friends,
Like a scratch across the lens,
Made everything look wrong from anywhere we stood.
And our paper blew away before we'd left the bay.
So half blind, we wrote these songs on sheets of salty wood.
Caught me makin' eyes at the other boatman's wife,
And heard me laughing louder at the jokes told by their daughter.
I'd set my course for land, but you well understand,
It takes a steady hand to navigate adultrous water.
The propeller's spinning blades held aquaintance with the waves,
As there's mistakes I've made no rowing could outrun.
The cloth low on the mast, I say I got no past,
I'm nonetheless the librarian and secretary's son.
The tarnish on my brass, the mildew on my glass--
I'd never want someone so crass as to want someone like me.
But a few leagues off the shore, I bit a flashing lure,
And I assure you it was not what I expected it to be.
I still tastes its' kiss, that dull hook in my lip
Is a memory as useless as a rod without a reel.
To an anchor ever dropped, sea-sick yet still docked,
Captain spotted napping with his first mate at the wheel!
We'll float forgetfully along, with no need to be strong,
We keep our confessions long, but when we pray we keep it short.
I drank a thimble full of fire,
I'm not ever coming back...
Oh, my God.
I do not exist, but faithfully insist,
While watching sink the heavy ship with everything we knew!
And if ever you come near, I'll hold up high a mirror.
If you fail to see a problem,
(Which I find hard to believe)
Or if you're hanging on from branches
Licking honey from the leaves you say
"The hopelessness of living, the childishness of suicide"
But there's a call to love my brother
That can never be destroyed however much you talk,
However well you talk you make a certain sense
It's still only stupid talk, however much I strut around,
However loud I sing the Shining One inside me won't say anything,
Oh, to want one thing!
Purity of heart is to want one thing.
You'll remind me that I said you were
A quiet bed in all my noise to rest
Well I was charming you at best.
And you remember, dear, when I said
"My coming here was like a terrible fall!"
As we crept like thieves along your bedroom hall
I'd come down and touch your eyelids,
But if you stay up too late I'll throw you back into the cupboard
With the chipped and dirty plates
Like the carnival game with the bottleneck and rubber ring,
Even if you win, even then you don't win.
January, 1979.
Saw a terrible crash and i couldn't help but laugh,
As my ear pressed against the past like a glass on a wall of a house in a photograph.
My forehead no longer sweet with holy kisses worthy of your fiery lips.
I was floating in a peaceful sea 'rescued' by a sinking ship.
If I could become the servant of all, no lower place to fall. (If could be your servant)
If I could become the servant of all, no lower place to fall. (If I could be your servant)
If I could become the servant of all, no lower place to fall. (If could be your servant)
If I could become the servant of all, no lower place to fall. (If I could be your servant)
You watch me like a ten car highway wreck with detached, vulgar curiosity.
This looking down at the tops of the hats of us passers-by from your 7th floor balcony.
From such a height you missed creatures too small for sight carry on covert conversations.
And the misguided insects crown me their grasshopper king with a dance of celebration.
After years with a crown on my head, I've grown overfed, unconcerned and comfortably numb.
Kept busy indulging in the pleasures of the wealthy.
(Someone make me afraid of what I've become!)
At the first sign of possible sorrow, I turned my heels and ran.
(Oh, I'll never learn.)
My life is a cup of sugar I've borrowed before time began and forgot to return.
It was a matter of time--I always said I could see so now I'm going blind. (I could be your servant)
It was a matter of time--I always said I could see so now I'm going blind. (If I could be your servant)
It was a matter of time--I always said I could see so now I'm going blind. (I could be your servant)
In a sweater poorly knit, and an unsuspecting smile
Little Moses drifts downstream in the Nile
A fumbling reply -- an awkward, rigid laugh
I'm carried helpless by my floating basket raft
Your flavor in my mind swings back and forth between sweeter than any wine, and bitter as mustard greens
Light and dark as honeydew and pumpernickle bread
The trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead
As you plow some other field and try and forget my name, see what harvest yields, and, supposing I'd do the same
I planted rows of peas, but by the first week of july -- they should have come up to my knees but they were maybe ankle high
Take the fingers from your flute to weave your colored yarns, and boil down your fruit to preserves in mason jars
But now books are overdue and the goats are underfed... the trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead
You're a door-without-a-key, a field-without-a-fence
You made a holy fool of me, and I've thanked you ever since
If she comes circling back, we'll end where we'd begun
Like two pennies on the train track the train crushed into one
Or if I'm a crown without a king, if I'm a broken, open seed
If I come without a thing, I come with all I need
No boat out in the blue, no place to rest your head
The trap I set for you seems to have caught my leg instead
exist
only
The bird that plucked the Olive Leaf
(has) been circlin' like a record 'round the spindle of my mind
where the needle's worn the grooves too deep,
and scratched the wax that's blistered from the heat besides.
From any movement in the room -
if my cat walked by the arm skipped
but to my surprise, my interrupting cat improved
the sound already so severely compromised.
The needle's worn the grooves too deep. (x4)
I'm a donkey's jaw on a desert dune
beside the bush that Moses saw
that burned and yet was not consumed!
She's the silver coin I lost!
I'm the sheep who slipped away!
We pray the fingers crossed,
but you listen patiently anyway.
I wrote a little song for you
with a melody I'd borrowed put to words that didn't rhyme
to repeat what you already knew,
as the stones thrown at your window tapped in syncopation.
You kept a distance out of fear you'd break,
but what good's a single windchime hanging quiet all alone?
The music our collisions would make
is the sound that turns "the road that leads us back home"
into "home."
The music our collisions make! (x4)
I had a rusty spade, but I'm not the fighting sort!
If I was Samson I'd have found that harlot's blade
and cut my own hair short!
Then, in a market dimly lit, I'd come casually to pay:
"You see, my coins are counterfeit.
Would you accept them anyway?"
So spare me your goodbyes,
your waving-handkerchief goodbyes!
Given my tendency to err so on the sentimental side,
I will spare you my goodbyes.
The truth belongs to G-d!
You might sleep, but you'll never dream
Onward! Progress! Or so it seems.
You might laugh, but you'll never smile.
Come on in and waste away awhile.
When dreams of rings of flowers fade and blur
Giving way to that familiar ill
come over and part your soft white curtains
Where I'm waiting for you still
If you'd unlatch the window,
If you'd let me lay there on your floor
If you'd give me another chance,
If you'd forget the pain I caused before
No use in saying how I'm sorry
So I'm trying not to speak
I'll sing in silence, lay beside you
With my face there on your cheek
My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar-
Rabbit fled, best guess, toward home
Fox & Bear toward Yellowstone
Walrus, north to the border towns
Peacock swayed like a reed on the fence a while
(with a stalwart sense of style!)
as the policemen’s nets came down
Word of the crash had spread fast and spread far
From Clark’s Fork to Blackfoot Reservoir
more grist for the malady mill
Shepherd the Southwest wind,
"railspikes ripped like the seam of a wineskin"
Shepherd the Northwest rain,
"Brass Hat slept at the helm of that woeful train…
Ain’t it an awful shame!
And don’t it just break your heart to hear of so much
pain?"
Casey Jones walked slow to the prison cell
His face held hard as a scallop shell
[CONDUCTOR:] "Well, I wish I wished you well,
but your last friend on Earth now calls
from the silent side of the cemetery walls
your great cause to the moths and the rust!"
[ELEPHANT (Fanning her ears with a calm in her eyes):]
"It’s the laws of cause and effect that you criticize
But sir, criticize them you must"
Three miles more ‘til Flagstaff
Follow behind signs toward Badger Pass
Wound like clocks around fretboards
Carved out hands in our basswood body guitars -
borrowed guitars (borrowed hands!)
I’m clearly not as handsome or caring as what you seem
to want,
but I’d gladly walk you home,
‘cause those streets can be dangerous
Shepherd the Southwest wind,
"railspikes ripped like the seam of a wineskin"
Shepherd the Northwest rain,
"frog switch slipped and that reckless beast is to
blame
Ain’t it an awful shame!
And don’t it just break your heart to hear of so much
the farmer drove his tractor
where the soil had been tilled
planting corn in rank and file
from the silo to the lumber mill
he rode along in silence
as looked out past the honeysuckle field
watched the water turn
turn the water wheel
started thinking about his daughter's affection
her reaction of disdain
the day he replaced the blue hydrangea
with the climbing grain
while her disappointed sister
looked on quiet as the snow
knowing well that those that know don't talk
and those that talk don't know
but she couldn't help but sing
the tortoise in the wheelchair
wrapped his forehead in a bandage
with a cast they made from plaster
for his phony broken leg
so he'd get pushed around the sidewalk
by the zookeeper's assistant
with the hummingbird observing
from behind the yellow flower
and he flapped his tiny wings
they moved so fast you couldn't see them
with resentment for the tortoise
which was clear by his expression
but the tortoise turned and smiled
with a peacefulness which proved
that there's a movement in our stillness
and however much we move
we're bound to stand completely still
come tortoise, standing still
go hummingbird, my will
come tortoise, stumbling blind
go hummingbird, my eyes
come tortoise, empty hand
go hummingbird, my plan
come tortoise, undefined
go hummingbird, my mind
come tortoise, letting go
go hummingbird, i know
come tortoise, come and die
go hummingbird, my I
goodbye, I
goodbye, I
We never met, you and I
We were always inside, we were somewhere inside one another.
And I'll live without you love,
but what good is one glove, without the other?
Still you only ask about my leaving,
But honey I had no choice,
and I call (and when you hear that heavy breathing)
for the sound of your voice.
But you sit there silent, folded arms
And look down as I walk by
My face has changed, you know it's me
You know by the stillness in my eyes.
Come and whisper in my ear, "You're very pretty, dear" and..and
"It'll be alright." You're lying!
But I don't mind tonight.
So I wander and I wander
Your absence beating inside my chest
And I try but I can't remember
The color of your eyes- JUST THE SHAPE OF YOUR DRESS!
And through a garden overgrown
Oh, it's a long walk home.
I said I'd not come back, well I'm coming back-
and you'd better be alone.
You sit there silent, folded arms
And you smile, as I walk by
My face has shamed, But you know it's me, YOU KNOW ITS ME!
Come and whisper in my ear, "my dear! my dear!"
"it'll be alright...
it'll be alright....
it'll be alright....
it'll be alright....
it'll be alright....
it'll be alright."
Provisionally eyed, practically alive, mistook sign for signified,
And so sins have often tried to run him off a cliff like Gadarene swine
Inside my wardrobe seem anchor bent,
Wondering whether we were someone better then...
Or maybe just better able to pretend,
And what better means to our inevitable end?
You know, I don't know if I know, though some with certainty insist,
No certainty exists!
Well I'm certain enough of this; in the past fourteen years there's only
One girl I've kissed!
And the blistering heat of the Asbury peer we sat, quiet as monks on the
Ferris wheel.
You're looking down at the water, down at the sea, I asked her "did that
Ever occur in fantasy? where you pushed little kids from the tops of the
Ride?" Then she shook her head "no," I said "Oh, neither do I." And with my
Grandma's ring, I went down on one knee.
And the subsequent catastrophe has since haunted me like a fiberglass ghost
I sent part of me (Like a fibreglass ghost to ask of my inconveniently
Selective memory) Forgetfully you, mercifully withdrew, all the bearing
Points we thought we knew, days run, days set clock, our calm is shot.
We sailed waywardly on, singing our midnight archer songs until well past
Dawn. It's still dark on the deck of our boat, haphazardly blown, broken
Bows, our aimless arrow words don't mean a thing
Tonight I think it's pretty obvious that there's no God. And there's
Definitely a God!
I dreamt on the rocks at the asbury dune that you jumped from the top of
The log flume
And they gather like wolves on the boardwalk below
They're howling for answers
No wolf can know I charged at the waves with a glass in my hand
I was tossed like a ball at the bottle stand
And I landed besides your remains on the stone where your cold finger
Wrapped round my ankle bone
Maybe ten feet away was a star, Thousands of times the size of our sun
Exploding like party balloons... Slept until our chest was full of yarn we
Spun from Shetland wool. Socks from where the Dorset grows, sheared and
Scoured hours before the rooster crows. The price of German silver fell,
I wrote a four word letter,
With post-script in crooked lines,
"Tho I'd lived I'd never been alive."
You know who I am - you held my hem
As I traveled blind
Listening to a whispering in my ear,
Soft but getting stronger,
Telling me the only purpose of my being here
Is to stay a bit longer.
Stealing a bicycle chain,
As the handlebars crashed to the ground,
The back wheel detached from the frame,
It kept rolling, yeah, but aimlessly drifting around.
Oh, doubters, let's go down,
Lets go down - won't you come on down?
Oh doubters, lets go down-
Down, to the river to pray?
"But I'm so small I can barely be seen - how can this great love be inside of me?"
Look at your eyes - they're small in size, but they see enormous things.
Wearing black canvas slippers
In our frog-on-a-lily-pad pose
We sewed buttons and zippers
To chinese pink silk
And olive night clothes
If you can someday stop by
Somehow we'll show you the pictures and fix you some tea
(see, my dad's getting a bit older now and just unimaginably lonely).
Oh, pretenders, let's go down
Lets go down- won't you come on down?
Oh, pretenders
Lets go down-
Down to the river and pray?
"Oh but I'm so afraid, and I'm set in my ways"
But he'll make the rabbits and rocks sing his praise.
"But I'm to tired, I won't last long."
No, he'll use the weak to overcome the strong!
Oh, Amanda, let's go down
Lets go down- won't you come on down?
Mama, Nana, lets go down, down in the dirt by the river to pray?
You struke the match - why not be utterly changed by fire?
To sacrifice the shadow and the mist
Of a brief life you never much liked - So if you'd care to come along we're gonna curb all our never-ending,
clever complaining (as who's ever heard of a singer criticized by his song?)
We hunger, but though all that we eat brings us little relief we don't know quite what else to do,
We have all our beliefs but we don't want our beliefs,
it's the end of the morning
what have i done?
it's finally getting warmer
oh God what have i done?
prayers for your soul while hoping mine
would leave this awful place sometime
somewhere better with no more pain
you won't love him you'll love me again
i was the one the one who was always here
fate seeks my soul and it's drawing near
i'd die today if you could forgive me, dear
i said that anything mattered... words
i'd sing you a song i'd love you if i knew how
it's too late to hold or kiss you now
He wont remember were made perfect somehow
"this morning is different" ... words
i look down she's asleep in a place she can smile again
the world will forget her as she disappears to them
i swore i'd love her i'd rather pretend
"all these tears are for you" ... words
with poison within me and everything still
i know now what i have to do (what i never will)
i will lift up my eyes to the hills
Stitch up the nets but the patch won't stay
As the nail beds rest in the calico hay
The Fiji Mermaid dressed in macrame's
Wading road in the fork and a bend
In the spoon tern cut short as a shadow at noon
Melting like wax as that once full moon's
Now waning ersatz acts an insufferable bore
'Sharp Shots' dull as a harlequin's sword
When doing as you please doesn't please you anymore
Stick of the match as the paraffin show
Drop a nickel to watch the asparagus grow
'The stone in what shell?'
You sure like to know now don't you?
A loom in the heir as the medicine came
To the nest of the mare of the mystery claims
But you'll miss having someone to blame
For your sadness, now won't you?
Well maybe there'll be a bakery hiring
We'll knead a little dough to get by
(Groan!)
Did you come knocking on my door
Or did I come to yours?
Whose ship came washed up on whose shore?
And from what ocean floor?
There wasn't much to her dress
and I felt stuck in my body like a horse in
quicksand...
the camel in the desert took a ship across the lake
while the fish in search of water found a fig with a
bellyache
who overheard the waves as they headed for the shore
"we're not so sure of separations anymore."
at the caterpillar picnic, brother butterfly stole
a rhubarb stem, licked and dipped it in the sugar bowl
caught up for Massachusetts in a double-stacked train
through the adirondacks spinning like a weathervane
gathering and cutting and splitting and stacking the wood
our fuel is neatly piled and we all feel good
we pretend to care and like we understand, our eyes go
soft but know it now -
what we're thinking about is your mammary glands and how
to sail your birth canal
we found the pot that fit the lid no less now then when
we were smarter did
our thoughts are like a tea bag on the saucer, all the
flavor gone
that dog below our waist aroused, when arms embraced the
pretty gals
it came much more as a surprise, it happening when i
hugged the guys
we planted for the final frost, we once were found and
now we're lost
February 8th, 1878
South of Trout Creek, west of Cedar Lake
On a winding mountain trail of the North Pacific Union
Rail
The snow arrived on time, the circus train was running
late
Rip spot’s past and all the knuckles worn,
Firebox bursting to the running boards
A pounding in his chest, crushing like a cider press
The hogger rode the throttle ‘round the bender like a
flank-strapped horse
[ELEPHANT (addressing the frightened animal car):]
"Let’s return now to the dust as the dust we are;
tonight, our bridal fate, the hour’s come to
consummate!"
And drove her massive body like a truck into the iron
bars
Limestone thrown from out the hopper’s back
Ash Cat tossed against the diamond stack
from cradle to caboose, the frozen bolts broke loose,
sent that cage spinning like a dreidel off the icy
tracks
Run on, Rabbit, run!
Before the East sky wakes the sun!
Sails set to the dreadful cold,
Until your anchor-heart takes hold
Run on, Fox & Bear,
From this dismal dream’s despair!
Cast thoughts to in the open ocean of air
Until your thread catch somewhere
[ANIMALS:] "Mother, please come along!"
[ELEPHANT (from inside her cage):]
"My tusks are dull, my eyes, half-blind,
too old to run, too big to hide,
and have neither friend nor enemy,
nor that phantom, ‘self’-identity
nor concern for what ‘they’ll’ do to ‘me’
now, my children, run free!"
But Tiger, why sit still,
As the officers climb the hill?
What stars cast down their spears,
cooled your fire with their tears?
[TIGER:] "Gone that siren’s sound,
it’s a silence now pours down
Gone, my next of kin,
and all once without now lives within"
[FOX & RABBIT:] "Topiary Tiger, once burned bright
save your tales of gnostic sight
and take heed on this (most) auspicious night!
Everything was beautiful, and nothing hurt.
"As we melt let's make no noise
oh the profanation of our love
to tell the world our passing joys!
And we, besides, care less to miss
our eyes and lips and hands."
(but honey, I'm not who you think I am!)
"And so you'll be to me
who must obliquely run
"thy firmness makes my circle just,
and makes me end where I begun"
There's nothing wrong
as I'll be somewhere singing all along."
Every thought a thought of You
No more thought I ought to do
When there is thing we see or touch we trust it's true
Every thought a thought of You
Every look in search of You
No need for books when we're with you
Wear a thin disguise oh like within my brother's eyes
Every look in search of You
Da da da da da
Da da da da
Every song in praise of You
Our darkest nights are days to You
The trees raise branches high like arms in church to grateful sky
Every song in praise of You
No one here to believe but You
Everyone else is bound to leave but You
When they swear their love is real
They mean "I like the way you make me feel"
No one here to believe but You
There's no one here to believe than You
Da da da da da
Da da da da
Da da da da da
Da da da da
Pillary stocks at the gallows tree dock
the crowd grew impatient the clouds threatened rain
Elephant arrived at the Constable's side,
with her trunk locked in shackles, and her ankles in
chains
[Bailiff:]
"All rise, all rise, his Honor presides,"
the Judge took the bench to the village brass
cavalcade,
Elephant refused to swear the oath,
[Elephant:]
"I don't know anything about truth,
but I know falsehood when I see it,
and it looks like this whole world you've made"
Good of our chaplain to sail Kalispell Bay
And now down on his marrow for this old fool to pray,
"Lord, for sixty-so years I've surrendered my love,
to emblems of kindness, and not the kindness they were
emblems of,
Trammels and rings, with the strength of old strings,
and some hobble skirt spring, by the old problem
caught,
Children, sometimes I think all our thoughts are just
things,
and then sometimes think things are just thoughts,"
and the rabble rang
[Crowd:]
"Hang! the Elephant must hang! the Elephant must hang!
Hang! the Elephant must hang! the Elephant must hang!"
[Elephant:]
"A thirteen coil knot for the samovar pot! Scottish
Oatcakes in haversacks each to its grave
This mock trial can no more determine my lot,
than can driftwood determine the ocean's waves,
Brandish your ropes and your boards, and your basket-
hilt swords,
but what is there can punish like a conscience ignored?
Yes, my body did just as you implied,
while some ghost we'll call 'I' idly watched through
its eyes,"
and the jury sang,
"Hang! the Elephant must hang! the Elephant must hang!
Hang! the Elephant must hang! the Elephant must hang!
Hang! the Elephant must hang! the Elephant must hang!
Hang! the Elephant must hang! the Elephant must hang!"
[Elephant:]
I feel it stealing now
We met by chance by the row river sign
Our soft fire danced as our tea leaves dried
She hatched our plans in the atmospheric times
Said, "Let's give up sacrifice this land
Well, that joke's long, it's been spent"
Before the bagpipes played
We kept cool in the parasol shade
Your gum on my pain at my tender age
East enders wives
And hidden in the fox thorn blind
We grew old as the fox trailed by
Sheep in the cold shielding our gold
Sipping on milk and water like
She packed our bags on arbitrary times
And waved like a flag from the white star line
On more than will though I self-apologize
We both been untrue but I'm still counting on you
Like an invisible rosary
And as the past and all plans are undone
Slowly sank like a shipwrecked sun
Ridges and ropes, burning man throats
Burned up the sky
Fires hang as the black birds fell
Sorrow rang like the church-yard bells
And as the trees smoking living
cattail down,
the morning rail yard whistle blows.
cattail down,
our boxcar bound for... no one knows.
after every hidden seed out
from it covering has been free,
and every book has been discarded from the bookshelf.
cattail down,
and the forgetting of myself.
cattail down,
replace the feathers in our vests.
cattail down,
surround the ivy
thats gone to poison in my chest.
"the parachute broke loose,"
cried the goose with misplaced
but understandable concern
for his little brother's mental health.
his happy little brother,
and the forgetting of himself.
cattail down,
around the bulrush, the pollen shed.
cattail down,
to dress my wounds,
it left a bee sting in their stead.
i've been having anger thoughts from out my head (?)
headed east out of st. paul,
we stopped for water.
rested in the cemetery,
watched the mississippi.
running out of food stamps,
found a bag along the footpath
off highway 61 filled with
what looked like marijuana.
(don't worry mom, we left it there)
hopped a greenrail out a pin's eye
toward milwaukee, hit a deer
between the tower and the tracks,
saw right through it.
said, "you don't know where you came from,
you don't know where you're going,
you think you're you-
you don't know who you are,
you're not you.
you're everyone else."
On a bus ride into town
I wondered out loud "Why am I going to town?"
And as I looked around at the billboards and the stores
I thought "Why do I look around?"
And I kissed the filthy ground
And in the first dry spot I found
And I didn't have to wonder why I was laying down.
Before long I was too cold
Took a bus back to the station
I found a letter left by a pay phone
With no return contact
And it read like a horn blown by some sad angel
"Bunny, it was me... it was me who let you down"
It was the shyest attempt I'd ever seen at conversation
If I didn't have You as my guide I'd still wander lost in Sinai,
Counting the plates of cars from out-of-state,
(how I could jump in their path as they hurry along!)
You surround me, you're pretty but you're all I can see,
like a thick fog - if there was no way into God,
I would never have laid in this grave of a body for so long.
And Bonner fair always came through the first week of September
But it's already the 19th
And there's no sign of it.
Yet I have a hard time
Remembering all the things that I should remember
And a hard time
Forgetting the all things that I am supposed forget.
Oh Christ when You're ready to come back
I think I'm ready for You to come back
But if You want to stay wherever exactly it is You are,
That's okay too - it's really none of my business.
If I didn't have You as my guide I'd still be wandering lost in Sinai
Or down by the tracks watching trains go by to remind me:
There are places that aren't here.
I had a well but all the water left
So I'll ask Your forgiveness with every breath,
If there was no way into God,
[Peacock:]
Ragged robbins for the curtain call
Wrapped in ribbons on the trailer door
Carved initials in a concrete footstall
On the imitation marble floor
We’re the boxtop admissions and their throwaways,
Strewn across tobacco roads
With their wormwood shots and their snake oil plots
Drunk sheepshank con men and their sycophants
And I often wonder if I've already died
[Tiger:]
Out at elbows by the encore
But there’s a citadel inside
Where I’ll go and shape my heart like yours,
As you shape yours like mine
Where we’re the spiraling arms of all galaxies
And we’re the microscopic sand
Suffering from delusions of ungrandeur on middling
display
Beside the Cardiff giant with the alabaster eyes
I often wonder if I've already died,
Or if the 'I' is an unintelligible lie
Off we flew like swarms of hornets
'Woken up' from winter’s rest
To colonize with plastic pulp
Our neighbor’s perfect paper nest
While all year round potter wasp
Has buzzed her unhinged song
You can hear its creaking in our floorboards
our house wrapped in disrepair,
a small mouse peeked out from a hole beneth the stairs
nearby to where my dad sat in his favorite chair,
thinking about the gov't and muttering a prayer
so I scattered some oats in hopes she'd stay
and sat still to stop from scaring her away-
but she hurried on her little way
and scurried around my mind
ever since,
every day
open wide my door, my door, my Lord
(open wide my door)
to whatever makes me love You more
(open wide my door)
while there's still light to run towards
I'm water, you're the dry wood
equal parts misguided and misunderstood
but all the neighborhood
watched a fire burn from where they stood
as the smoke said
"we're not half as bad as G-d is good"
still there's a whisper in my ear,
the voice of loneliness and fear, so I say:
"devil, disappear!
I'm still (ehh... technically...) a virgin
after 27 years-
which never bothered me before,
what's maybe 50 more?"
she came back for the oats
but she brought along a "friend"
(this never ends)
the harder the rain,
the lower the flowers in the garden bend
(this never ends)
I'd rather never talk again
than to continue to pretend